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Hm. I knew breaking up would be hard, but not this hard, since it was my choice. It seems he has another person to occupy his time already, but I have no right to be jealous. I just kinda wish I had someone too, to take my mind off of things. I didn't do it that way though, that would be wrong and cruel to stay with someone until you have someone else lined up.
I want to unfriend him on facebook, but at the same time I don't want to. Every time one of his family posts pictures of them having a great time, I want to unfriend them too, just because it hurts. When I hung out with them, we'd basically just sit around and talk, or they would drink, or play with their gadgets. Much more fun when I'm not there; I never thought of myself as a huge party downer but maybe I am. He says it's pure coincidence that they seem to be doing more fun things now, but I seriously doubt it as ever more photos are posted.
I'm wondering if that had anything to do with my decision, but I don't think so.
Once, I asked him what he would be doing if I wasn't there to say "let's go do xyz!" and he said he'd just be sitting there watching TV. I felt like the driving force, but now I suspect he's creating his own fun without me which kind of hurts too. Was there just no motivation before? I don't know.
I would occasionally ask him if there was anything bothering him, or if anything I did got on his nerves. He always said everything was fine. How can that be? You can't be with someone that much and NEVER be annoyed, can you? It's not good to hold things in.
I just really don't know what happened here.
I know we had a very strong connection, at least I did, from the moment we laid eyes on each other.
I feel so sad, and like I shouldn't care what he does now since I'm not his girlfriend anymore - but how can you help it? I'm not used to breakups, I never dated much. How long does this take? How do you deal with the feelings? How do you not scream?
Hm. I knew breaking up would be hard, but not this hard, since it was my choice. It seems he has another person to occupy his time already, but I have no right to be jealous. I just kinda wish I had someone too, to take my mind off of things. I didn't do it that way though, that would be wrong and cruel to stay with someone until you have someone else lined up.
I want to unfriend him on facebook, but at the same time I don't want to. Every time one of his family posts pictures of them having a great time, I want to unfriend them too, just because it hurts. When I hung out with them, we'd basically just sit around and talk, or they would drink, or play with their gadgets. Much more fun when I'm not there; I never thought of myself as a huge party downer but maybe I am. He says it's pure coincidence that they seem to be doing more fun things now, but I seriously doubt it as ever more photos are posted.
I'm wondering if that had anything to do with my decision, but I don't think so.
Once, I asked him what he would be doing if I wasn't there to say "let's go do xyz!" and he said he'd just be sitting there watching TV. I felt like the driving force, but now I suspect he's creating his own fun without me which kind of hurts too. Was there just no motivation before? I don't know.
I would occasionally ask him if there was anything bothering him, or if anything I did got on his nerves. He always said everything was fine. How can that be? You can't be with someone that much and NEVER be annoyed, can you? It's not good to hold things in.
I just really don't know what happened here.
I know we had a very strong connection, at least I did, from the moment we laid eyes on each other.
I feel so sad, and like I shouldn't care what he does now since I'm not his girlfriend anymore - but how can you help it? I'm not used to breakups, I never dated much. How long does this take? How do you deal with the feelings? How do you not scream?
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