Remembering

~E~

A few more things from my past are coming together, and I'm understanding why I'm having some of the dreams I've been having. Feeling like the important people in my life weren't there to back me up is the main thing. Being blamed when a neighbor kid punched me in the stomach, hard, for something my sister did. (I shouldn't have gone up to him when he called me, apparently. Again girls and women are supposed to be mind-readers)

People trying really hard to minimize the things I told them, trying really hard to brush off the icky feelings they got that told them what they were suspecting was true.

I was taught I wasn't worth defending. And that made it easier for me to be victimized down the road. Thank Maude I'm over that now.

I'm sitting here wondering why my ex is friends with someone who molested me. A guy who considers himself to be a really good person, and fairly feminist. Is there no one on this planet who will stick up for me besides me?

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