sunny blizzard

~E~ Gotta love how people will rewrite history to make themselves feel better. I hope I don't tend towards that. I don't think I do. You da man, Paul Revere!

~E~ Life goes on. Children grow up. Job gets more complicated. I spend too much time on Facebook and not enough time thinking and writing. Too shallow. I need to slow down, stop skimming and start thinking, digging deeper. It's so much more satisfying. I want deeply satisfying, not instantly gratifying. I think I just wrote part of a lyric.

~E~ Why do I find it hard to write the next line... Of my life.

~E~ Damn. I'd walk a bit and feel like I'd just done a workout; I couldn't be THAT out of shape! My leg muscles would burn a little. That turned into walking a short distance and feeling out of breath. Pretty soon, I'd go downstairs and sort laundry and have to take a breather before I went upstairs again. I'd walk two blocks and have to stop, chest heaving and muscles locked up, and wait before I could go on. It was frustrating and a bit scary, there was NO WAY this was just being out of shape. Every walk from the parking garage to my office, from my office to the lunchroom, left me feeling like I had run a marathon. People looked at me funny. After a doctor visit, it turns out I'm fairly severely anemic! Not hospital-bad, but bad. That explains the physical weirdness, the crazy restless-leg syndrome I've been suffering with for the past couple of months. I'm glad it's something that is eminently treatable! Iron supplements for however long it take...

~E~ Haunted.

~E~ Actions speak just as loud as words.

~E~ Recently there have been several instances of friends on facebook complaining about guys, saying they are jerks, and on one I commented that guys can be jerks sometimes. In all instances, a guy showed up really darn quickly to point out that not ALL guys are assholes or jerks. So? Prove it. Why is is that guys can show up in seconds to defend their gender's honor, but are noticeably absent when a woman is being called nasty names or is being treated like crap. Online? Guys don't bother. On the street? Guys don't bother, and in fact claim to not even see this stuff happen. At work? They studiously look the other way. If you really aren't an asshole, call out other guys who are. If you aren't part of the solution, you're part of the problem. Maybe someday, we can achieve a better world.